It's been a boogar of a day so far. I'm glad it's only noon because I'm going to have to re-vamp myself today. There is some pretty yucky stuff going on in my family right now and it's bringing me down. Actually it's not so much bringing me down as prohibiting me from seeing life clearly.
That's why I write this blog.
I need perspective checks a lot in my life. I'm not the kind of happy go lucky person I would like to be sometimes, and coming to this space and looking at all that I do that is positive is very helpful to me. There's much more good than bad in my world.
This morning I did not go well. I let my lack of perspective explode all over my two precious girls, and it's not the first time I've let this happen in the past few weeks. When I lose my temper and become a scary monster Mommy I do not like myself and I'm not okay with the way it makes my children feel.
But it happens.
The worst part is that the whole time it's happening I am telling myself in my head to walk away and take a breath. Gain perspective. Gain control.
And eventually I do. Thankfully before worse things than screaming happen.
And then I realize that mostly things are going right. My life is good and I have the skills I need to back up and re-group with an agenda that works for all of us.
But I'm extremely happy that it's nap time. Because time by myself is pretty much essential in the re-grouping process.