This is a week of feeling hideously anxious about my decision to quit my job. I'm scared. Scared of many things. Not the least of which include: losing my independence, losing my connection with much loved and trusted colleagues, losing my students, learning how to manage my time without the constraints of an outside job to guide the parameters, and watching someone else come in and take over my program. A program I have built from the ground up, with love and stress and all that goes into doing something really well. Which I believe I have done. Not perfect, but well and with all of my heart. I'm excited about what lies ahead for me, too. I know that I will find outlets for my creativity and my need to connect socially. I also know that it is right. Leaving this job is the right thing for me to do right now. But still I'm scared and exhausted from the worry of what is to come.
When I saw this quote it gave me instant peace tonight. Knowing that growth is coming and remembering how that feels gave me some solace. Maybe you'll find it applicable to your own life in some way.
And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.
— Anais Nin